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Merry merry merry Christmas for yesterday! I’m homey home home for a few days, and I’m freshly showered with scruffy half wet hair wearing my beautiful new jacket and in my jammies. I’m so happy to be in this cosy, lovely house with Christmas lights, fluffy doggies and kittens, a tree and pretty little festive decorations dotted around. It’s such a difference from our cold laminate floor house in Oxford with just a festive wrapping paper poster on the wall for Christmas cheer.

Yesterday, Christmas Day, we were all spoiled rotten by each other; I’m so glad everyone loved their presents as I know I went overboard again this year and as a result I’m skint, which I thought was going to be a real problem because I only half £150 left until the end of January - but I feel I’ve been saved because Fee owes me pennies which can pay for New Year, and Mummy and Andy have just given me £35 of Amazon vouchers which is amazing and I can at least get a few books for the first couple of weeks for uni! But being fairly skint was so worth it watching everybody unwrap their presents and seeing their faces. I can’t believe what I got this Christmas, the jacket I’ve wanted for so, so long and I’m going to live in it from now on, and some lovely winter boots among other little bits from Mum and Andy. My sisters got me lots of treats and the most absolutely amazing heels I am definitely going to wear for New Year and probably every night out for the next 10 years! I got some bits and bobs; and amazing present from Gigi and Supernatural Season 6 and True Blood Season 3 from Dad, and I got so much chocolate and sweeties!

We spent Christmas day eating lots of food, talking excitedly about the holiday we’re all going on in May, and playing family board games and competing on the wii along with the awkward moment when we realised Mitch and Doch (mine and my sister’s ex boyfriends) were still on the Wii character channel and got erased infront of the whole family, especially as my sister’s new boyfriend was there and it was the first time we had all met him!

I really do feel so spoiled this year. It’s such a contrast to last year where I was so, so miserable and all I wanted was to get out of the house and away from my family. I’m just glad this year is so much better.

I’ve seen my best friend who I hadn’t seen in ages and we watched films and made gingerbread men. And we took Dylan out for a walk, typical me not wearing the cagoule and then it started pouring with rain and we both got back looking like drowned rats. Very excited to go New Year dress shopping and Nando’s tomorrow with her, Kel and her sister. I’m sleepy, full of Christmas food and so, so happy.

Well I don’t think the exam today could have gone much worse, as soon as I get into an exam my capacity for forming a coherent arguement goes to pretty much zero and my essay looks and reads like it’s been written by a five year old. I don’t think I’ve ever been so nervous before an exam, this morning I felt so ill and I was so jittery in the hall. I really, really hope I’m not going to be in the same situation on Tuesday.

I also feel awful because I’ve been ignoring my phone again, Shantelle has been texting and ringing me about housing next year and who I’m living with, and I don’t know what to say to her. Everyone who lives with her this year has said how much of a nightmare she’s been, and Georgie has driven me mad so far this year, I can’t even imagine living with both of them. Why do Sam and Vikki have to go on placement? It sounds silly but I’m going to be so lost without them next year, I wish I could jet off to Japan with Sammy.

Today has been torrential rain, and cycling home from work I crashed straight into the back of a bus because my brakes don’t work well in the rain. My bike had been out in the downpour all day my brakes didn’t work at all, it was just dandy that nobody stopped to help me, maybe the Oxford public are so used to seeing a brunette girl on a white bike having near death experiences in the middle of the road in town.

I’m quite ill, I have the general winter cold and sore throat which isn’t helped by the fact I’m not sleeping well, my first exam is in 6 days and I’m revising like mad whilst juggling my two jobs.

Monsoon is great to work for, but I kind of regret putting in for so much overtime recently even though I know I need the money. Rymans I’ve been trying to quit for ages now but they’ve cleverly manipulated me into staying. I’m so weak-willed it’s unbelievable. I’m happy, but I’m happy in a tired, drawn-out way. My brief trip home at Christmas is going to be such a welcome relief. I don’t have any deadlines to worry about, or work to get up for in the morning, I get to see my family and my puppies, and spend time with my wonderful best friend.